Stardate: 31.12.2014
I know no one will read this. This is more of a personal thing, but I'll keep it open if anyone is every interested or bored.
I haven't blogged in several years, and only started because of school. But for years I've always keep a journal, or memoir if you will.
I really just want to keep track of my thoughts and typing everything out is easier than pen and paper. It doesn't flow as well, but I don't get hand cramps as fast when I type.
This is just so awkward... Talking to myself on the fucking internet. Pardon the vulgarity, but it's' a regular occurrence in my vocabulary.
Recently, I've decided I need to put down the bottle, during a realization a few days ago. Yet I type this while drinking rum. I can't even last a fucking day without going insane, and I know I should not be like that. I've lost my way; who I am; what I wanted to be when I was growing up. I'm not changing just as a New Year's resolution or anything as simple or temporary as such; I want to mold myself into the man that I am capable and worthy of being.
Enough of that... Before I go too deep into my soul...
I guess once I start producing personal documentaries, or short films, I will upload them to vimeo or youtube and post them here. I just hope my blog will not be lost in the internet as I grow old, and lose my own history.
